The United States of Leland

I watched this tonight. Although it was quite touching and painful, it was enjoyably so.

This week has been busy and had it's highs and lows. I am finding it still difficult to get on with things at work. I struggle to shift my focus and resist being negative. I don't like myself and my thoughts at work.
This is the longest I have been in a job. Four and a half years......
I am continuing to question myself and trying to find the truth beneath the upset. I am sure there is something I am not learning that is keeping me suspending in this struggle. I want to be released. It is possibly not even about work. I don't know. I just feel really hurt and upset and whilst I am trying to pretend everything is ok and I am over it, I am dreaming and crying in my dreams and I can't escape it.